Oh, WOW!: Archive

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If there's anyone who cares, I have a new blog →

You should all follow me there because a) I am nice, and b) it feels pointless without followers to talk to.

Dec 3rd

I forgot that I had this account.

Since I’ve been gone, I’ve seen a friend go in and out of recovery, I reached my ultimate goal weight, I cut myself again, I stopped most of my behaviours, and put on around 8kg (at least). My waist is almost 4 cm thicker and my thighs are starting to touch again. I’m mortified with myself, and I just cannot live like this. I haven’t weighed myself in months. ...

Sep 24th

May 11th

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I hit 60.something and now I’m all the way back up to 63. I want to die.

May 10th

23588) I'm so tired of counting calories.

Mar 31st

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I love that every time I log on here I have 5 or so less followers. My binges are getting more and more frequent and I think going to uni so far away from everyone, and having no friends while I’m there, is making me incredibly depressed. Y’know, moreso than I usually am. I feel so lifeless all the time, and I actually don’t want to see my friends, I just want to sit at home and...

Mar 31st

I think I can finally see the decay in my teeth.

Mar 25th

I checked in my weight on the website I used to track my calories/weight etc and it congratulated me for losing over 15kg (33lbs), then asked if I wanted to submit my success story. I can’t believe I’ve lost that much weight. How could I possibly have ever weighed 15kg more than this?! Not only that, but I didn’t even start using it at my highest weight. I don’t know how to...

Mar 14th

lol I've lost like 15 followers since the last...

I remember when this tumblr had more followers than my personal, now I have twice as many on my personal. So the reason why I’m here is to say I’ve finally reached a size 10/12 rather than 12/14. Also that I’m almost at my original goal weight, except I dropped it by 5 kg last night so I’m 7kg off right now. Also I went shopping yesterday and spent $300 and I...

Mar 9th

I surpassed my original goal weight of 75, then of 70, then of 65, and I’m almost at 60. I actually didn’t think that after 4 years I’d be one of the ones saying “I thought I could stop when I reached my goal weight, I didn’t mean for it to get so bad”. But I guess I was wrong. I am one of those people, and I am horrified by the thought.

Feb 21st

lol why do people keep following me on here? I haven’t posted in 15 days and nothing I post is ever of actual quality. So I weigh 64kg now, which is 4kg off my goal which I’m pretty sure will drop by 5 once I get there because nothing is ever quite enough for me. And that’s all I’ve got to say.

Jan 10th

I haven’t weighed myself since Friday and I’m going crazy not knowing. I was just over a kilo off my almost mid goal weight. I don’t know what the number is, but I feel like once I break it, it’ll be easier to keep going down. I really just hope I haven’t lost it and gained a heap of weight. agdosciugdsjkngmadgkam

Dec 25th

Turns out my soup was actually about 300ish calories :D but my museli bar was 20 more. Still, it leaves my total at less than 600 today!

Dec 19th

I feel sick, like I’ve eaten too much. It’s crazy. I’ve eaten about 600 calories today, which is about a quarter of what I should be eating. But if it’s barely anything, then why do I feel like I’m going to throw up. soup - 400ish calories museli bar - 124 calories 4 cookies - 80 calories

Dec 19th

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There’s space between my thighs…

Dec 17th

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I fail at everything I do. I failed school. I failed to commit suicide, numerous times. I failed to starve myself. I failed to care. I don’t have the energy, will power, or motivation to deal with anything any more. I want to be drugged up to the point where my life is a constant haze - more so than it is now.

Dec 16th

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Tea, 4 squares dark chocolate, 4 slices mini pizza. Not sure how many calories, but it’s less than 1000, so I don’t even care.

Dec 16th

Dec 14th

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I’m pretty sure yesterday was the worst binge I’ve had in years. Today I’ve had an apple pie, mother, and coffee. That’s about 500ish calories. I’m kind of sick and my jaw hurts so much, probably from the amount of puking I did yesterday (and how far I stuck my hand down my throat). It hurts to swallow and I keep almost sneezing. I’m running on about 4-5 hours...

Dec 13th

I want to buy teeth whitening stuff but I know that there’s no point in doing it. I know that I’ll just puke and ruin it anyway. My teeth are just so disgusting, they’re so much yellower than the white of my eye, it’s foul.

Dec 12th

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I fucked up, majorly, today. I ate 7 slices of pizza, 1 packet of noodles, 2 apple pies, 1 cheese & cauliflower roll, and 3 slices of cake. I threw up so many times today, that I don’t even remember it all. My stomach hurts so much, simply from even having that in me for the short period of time that it was. I was doing so fucking well. I was down to 65.2 kg, only 1.2 kg off my...

Dec 12th

Nov 13th

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I think I'm just going to abandon this tumblr

I’ll leave it activated as a kind of diary, but you can unfollow me if you like. I barely post anything now, and I don’t think I’m going to become inspired to start posting again any time soon.

Nov 11th