December 2010
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I haven’t weighed myself since Friday and I’m going crazy not knowing. I was just over a kilo off my almost mid goal weight. I don’t know what the number is, but I feel like once I break it, it’ll be easier to keep going down. I really just hope I haven’t lost it and gained a heap of weight.
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Turns out my soup was actually about 300ish calories :D but my museli bar was 20 more.
Still, it leaves my total at less than 600 today!
I feel sick, like I’ve eaten too much. It’s crazy. I’ve eaten about 600 calories today, which is about a quarter of what I should be eating. But if it’s barely anything, then why do I feel like I’m going to throw up.
soup - 400ish calories
museli bar - 124 calories
4 cookies - 80 calories
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There’s space between my thighs…
I fail at everything I do. I failed school. I failed to commit suicide, numerous times. I failed to starve myself. I failed to care.
I don’t have the energy, will power, or motivation to deal with anything any more. I want to be drugged up to the point where my life is a constant haze - more so than it is now.
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Tea, 4 squares dark chocolate, 4 slices mini pizza.
Not sure how many calories, but it’s less than 1000, so I don’t even care.
I’m pretty sure yesterday was the worst binge I’ve had in years.
Today I’ve had an apple pie, mother, and coffee. That’s about 500ish calories.
I’m kind of sick and my jaw hurts so much, probably from the amount of puking I did yesterday (and how far I stuck my hand down my throat). It hurts to swallow and I keep almost sneezing. I’m running on about 4-5 hours...
I want to buy teeth whitening stuff but I know that there’s no point in doing it. I know that I’ll just puke and ruin it anyway. My teeth are just so disgusting, they’re so much yellower than the white of my eye, it’s foul.
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I fucked up, majorly, today. I ate 7 slices of pizza, 1 packet of noodles, 2 apple pies, 1 cheese & cauliflower roll, and 3 slices of cake. I threw up so many times today, that I don’t even remember it all. My stomach hurts so much, simply from even having that in me for the short period of time that it was. I was doing so fucking well. I was down to 65.2 kg, only 1.2 kg off my...