Sep
25
I forgot that I had this account.
Since I’ve been gone, I’ve seen a friend go in and out of recovery, I reached my ultimate goal weight, I cut myself again, I stopped most of my behaviours, and put on around 8kg (at least). My waist is almost 4 cm thicker and my thighs are starting to touch again.
I’m mortified with myself, and I just cannot live like this. I haven’t weighed myself in months.
I’m going back to where I started, because that’s the only thing I know how to do.
